The Night I Lost It
When I drove a cab in the seventies, it was mostly in and
around Manhattan, with occasional excursions into Queens, Brooklyn and the
Bronx. The garage where I picked up the
cab and dropped it off at the end of a shift was in Long Island City, just on
the Queens side of the Ed Koch Queensboro Bridge, what we always called the
59th Street Bridge. A lot of cab
companies were based in that area.
At the end of a shift I would cross the bridge back to
Queens and drop off the taxi cab and take the train and bus back to my apartment
in Queens Village. I preferred the night
shift to the day shift, because at night people were more varied and often in a
partying mood, and there was a lot less traffic. My shift would typically end at 2 or
3am. One night after 3am of a busy
night I had just crossed the bridge into Queens and was driving the last blocks
to my garage. Passing by a bar I noticed
a large middle aged man with his arm up.
I was tired, and ready to call it a night, but the street was nearly
deserted, and I figured he was on his way home and wasn't likely to get a cab to
stop at this time of night. So, like the
well-meaning fool that I am, I stopped for him.
When he got into the cab I asked him where he was
going. If he had said somewhere far
away, I was going to beg off. But he
didn't answer my question, sitting stolidly in the back seat with a glazed look
in his eyes. I asked again, "Where
are you going?"
"You just drive," he said in an Eastern European
accent. I was annoyed. I wanted to know where I was going so late at
night on my last fare, especially with someone who had obviously been
drinking. But I drove a couple of blocks
before I asked again. Again he said, "Just
drive."
I said, "Look you're my last fare. If you want to go a long way, I can't do
it. I won't charge you. So I'd like to know." His face changed from the stiff glazed
expression to one of belligerence.
"I told you, just drive. You
are a public servant, you do what I say.
You don't need to know where I go.
Go left at the light."
I regretted that I had stopped for this ungrateful drunk,
wondering how much longer my night was going to be. I said, "Public servant huh? That's what you think I am? I was nice enough to stop for you. And now you're giving me a hard time."
"I told you to drive.
I tell you where to go."
Fuming, I drove where he told me.
This was Long Island City, a lonely area with nothing but a lot of
factories, all dark and silent at this time of night. I thought we'd be taking one of the main streets
out of the area, but he had me turn into a long dark street with huge factory
buildings on both sides. I couldn't
understand where he was leading me. So I
said, "Look, I know you're drunk.
But where are you going? Maybe I
know a quicker way. There's nothing but
factories and railroad tracks around here.
You've got to tell me where you want to go. Do you even know?"
"You are public servant. You don't need to know. Do as I say.
I say go left, you go left. I say
you go right, you go right."
I seethed, thinking, I hate drunks! "There's nothing around here," I
shouted. "I don't think you even
know where you are!"
"Just do as I say."
His big red face stared straight ahead, his heavy body a
lump of implacable stubbornness. I
didn't need this. I drove a few more
hundred feet into the dark desolate place.
The moon was red in the slice of sky between the tall black
buildings.
Then something snapped in me. "That's it!" I shouted. I slammed on the brakes bringing the car into
a sideways skidding stop. I put it in
park, threw open the door and leapt out of the cab. I opened the back door and yelled, "Out!
Get out!" The overhead light showed
him sitting, looking at me, dazed. He
didn't move. "You drive me,"
he said.
"Wrong. This is
it. Get another cab." Then he stared into the front of the
cab. I didn't know what he was looking
at, but then realized he was looking at my Taxi License on display with my name
and picture on it. He was memorizing my
name. At this point I didn't care.
I gave him a few more seconds, then I screamed with all my
considerable force, "Get out! This
is it! Do I have to pull you
out?" I was ready to. My anger had left me devoid of any caution or
sense. He was a large man, outweighed me
by fifty pounds easily, and for all I knew he had a weapon. But I was beyond reason; I wanted to be rid
of the jerk.
Finally he seemed to realize that he had no choice. He clambered out of the cab. I slammed the passenger door shut and leapt
back into the cab, saying, "See ya!"
And drove off, leaving him in the
middle of acres of dark, lonely behemoth buildings.
I felt a little bad, wondering how far he'd have to walk
just to get to a place with people. But
I didn't feel that bad. Then I thought
of his memorizing my name and causing me trouble with a complaint. But then I thought, In his condition, how
is he going to remember a name like Anifantakis?